Tuesday, December 28, 2010
New Years resolution
Dining Room
Thursday, December 2, 2010
My Bucket List
1. Visit New York in every season.
2. Go the "National Cherry Blossom Festival" in Washington, D.C.
3. Visit the Smithsonian
4. Go to a Josh Groban Concert.
5. Stay in a B&B
6. Ride on a train on the east coast.
7. Go to Bobby Flay's restaurant
8. Stand in front of the Eiffel Tower.
9. Ride a gondola in Venice.
10. Visit Greece and take a lot of pictures!
11. Go to an Ellen DeGeneres Show.
12. Visit Hollywood Boulevard
13. Be there whenever my sisters need me.
14. Be able to introduce my kids to my father and mother.
15. Customize my own home.
16. Get 20 stamps in my passport.
17. See a sunrise in Egypt
18. Go to Disney World
19. Get my art hunged up somewhere.
20. Go skiing or snowboarding
21. See an actual Van Gough painting
22. Visit Notre Dame in Paris, France
23. See an actual meteor shower
24. Have a star named after me.
25. Go to a Paramore concert.
26. See the Mayan ruins
27. Cook an entire Thanksgiving dinner.
28.Bake as good as my sister.
29.Get a job out of Texas.
30.Go to a movie premiere.
31.Go horseback riding on a beautiful beach, at sunrise
32.Fly first class
33.Become a pilot
34.See the leaves change color.
35.Start a diner with my sister.
36.Be a size 3 or 5
37.Karaoke
38.Get my CPA License before I'm 24
39.Pack my bags and go on a road trip
40.Ride the rides at Cedar Point
41.Visit Napa Valley
42.Visit some landmarks from my favorite movies.
43. Make a shot from half court
44.Scream at the Grand Canyon
45.Go to Jingle Ball in New York.
46.Visit my sisters at least 3 times in the year, if we live far away. Holidays do not count.
47.Resize ALL my dresses
48.Be comfortable with my height
49.Meet someone who can make me laugh.
50. Get married.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Guess who's back! For now
BEFORE
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
A change of......mind
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I'm a Working Girl :D
Tomorrow, i will be left unattended in the afternoon. I will admit I'm a little scared about that. But Tio said i get to use "I'm new" as an excuse.....for now. Friday i will also be by myself. Does that mean i get to show up late. (Just Kidding) I gotta get my little cousin to her work on time as well.
I discovered today that my soda is EXPIRED!! I didn't even know soda could expire....it tasted salty. But i didn't think anything before that because i was eating pasta (i had put salt in) but after lunch i drank water...then went back to my soda....and still the saltiness returned.
Oh well.
Tomorrow's lunch: Leftover Chicken Parmigiana.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Drinking, Scary, Funny
During my trip, Christina has developed a knack for....scaring me. I could be in my room...reading, texting, on my computer or just on my phone...and BANG! she's there. Freaky.
So since the car is out of my possession I've been at the house, cleaning (if i need to or was asked) I've done her & jacks laundry about twice already. And she informed me (one of the times she has scared me) that the number of years she's been married to Casey, he still hasn't figured out where everything goes. And it took me probably a matter of minutes to put things exactly where they go.
Ahhh....I love my sister. :D
Friday, July 23, 2010
Movie Reviews
In 3D with Casey, Jack, and Grandma Wendy. I laughed! it was cute and funny the minions were the funniest. A lot of famous people, I have no complaints against this movies. Good plot. In 3D it was awesome, as seen in the trailer there is a rollar coaster involved. And in 3d it feels like your actually on it, it was pretty cool. I'm not sure if i would buy it though.......idk maybe.
(3) The Last Airbender
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Why?
This past Sunday, one of my sister's best friends lost his brother. I knew him. He was the funniest, nicest, honest guy on this planet. And yet he was taken away. It seems unfair. That people who do bad and cruel things are allowed to live...yet those who are the greatest are taken to be with God. I believe....no...i know he is with god.
Something i also think unfair...is how my sister's inability to have children anymore. I believe no one deserves a baby than she does. She has a son already (7 year old Jack...her miracle baby as she likes to call him) i see (and have friends my age) who have kids and don't have the ability to take car of them. I just doesn't seem fair. Christina doesn't really have a religion but she believes in God. Yesterday, she said that God would but obstacles in front of you if he didn't believe you could overcome it. Seriously, no one has made as much sense as she did yesterday.
I do believe in god...i guess this is a question if i believe in myself and the people i love. And i do.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Hello from Bolingbrook!
This weekend (4th of July weekend)....I went to a birthday party with Jack. And to be truthful i thought i would be bored. But Jack kept me entertained...and i met some nice people. I ended up going back to Dawn's house (Casey's sister-in-law) and met some of her neighbors. Its kinda funny....it was like "Desperate Housewives". We then went to Olive Garden for dinner...it was a girls night out. It was Dawn, Dawn's friend, Christina, and me. It was meant to be a surprise..us going to go see Twilight Saga: Eclipse. However, i kind expected it. It is after all Christina we are talking about. It was a good movie.
During the movie however, there was an incident with this man. (out of 200 girls there were like 2-4 guys) were they had to stop the movie and get medical assistance. So we waited...and being girls we wanted to know what happened. Some women behind us even wanted to take pictures....now that's just crossing the line a bit. The movie continued.....and then it was time to go our separate ways.....Tina talked about the movie (compared it to the book) on the ride home.
The next day we traveled back to Dawn's house for dinner. ( I wore my Journey shirt...which Casey automatically started singing "Don't stop believing" and Keith & Terri (Casey's brother....Keith's neighbor) were kinda surprised that i knew about them... i did have to clarify that i liked them before Glee) I find it amazing that even though I'm no where related to Casey's family....they still treat me as family. Joking back and forth and getting my opinion on things. It was nice. Jack tried to learn how to ride a two-wheeler....he didn't get it...but I'm positive he will try again. We spend the night watching fireworks...i was a little surprised that its illegal for anyone to pop fireworks...Ha like that would stop anyone.
Forth of July. We went to Casey's step-sisters house......and its pretty far.....it was......ok....I got to meet Grandma Royer. she is the sweetest!! she told me to stay at home...to continue living with my dad. They were getting a little confused about the fact that me and Tina had different fathers. But we cleared it up.
Yesterday (Tuesday) i went for a jog and heard this alarm in town......i learned that the first Tuesday of every month they test the tornado alarm. Well I'm glad that was cleared up. I'm not sure what this trip will include...but i will definitely make the best of it.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Greatest fear
And about the other stuff. Not making a career for myself. Lets face it.....i didn't get the internship. [the departure date is in FOUR DAYS] kinda late notice if you ask me. And i can't get a job here, because [oh yeah that's right] you cant get a job without experience. And you can't get experience without a job. [so yeah I'm screwed] I have nothing going for me. I admit I'm not the prettiest out of the bunch. [being blunt I'm a freak, because of my height] [Its like I'm the Eiffel Tower and everyone else is the buildings around it](nothing compares)
Which leads me to....growing old alone. [Your probably saying "Your 20 you have plenty of time" and yes you would be right] I haven't had the best relationships. [an abusive relationship (which i still have nightmares about), a jealous one, and one where i realized we were just meant to be friends] I see these couples, and i just feel.....alone. I see my sister and her hubby & even my parents....and i cry [inside of course] [i try...not to let it bug me...but in reality it does]
Today [5-31-10] i broke the news to Kike that i knew i wasn't getting the internship. I couldn't even type it without crying. So [casually] i went to the bathroom [while Jessica was in the kitchen ...baking]. I locked the door, and sat down on the floor and began to cry. I guess when you have so much emotions in you.....it just comes out.
I know my sister [and maybe even my brother-in-law & parents] will probably read this. And they will try and give me their two cents. I'm not really sure i can take it. I'm not really sure they would understand.
Jessica - is gorgeous. Even if she doesn't know it. Married to her best friend. Smart. Lots of good friends. Probably never had a lonely day in her life. [though she may disagree.....she hasn't]
Danny - is talented [and that he probably knows] Level-headed. Generous & appreciated. Married to his best friend. Makes friends ....easily.
Mom & Dad - even though they are divorced. they seemed to have found each other again. And maybe they have had a lonely day. But......ever since us [Jess & I] they never had to endure a single lonely day again.
I......just want to .......LIVE.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Alternative?
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less
traveled by, And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost (1916)
Change
I think i can. I think maybe i have. [maybe not for the better as i have heard]
I think I'm a good girl. I don't do wrong by people. I try to make the right choices. I avoid confrontation, so i hardly ever argue with people.
Sometimes i think about him. Although, nothing ever happened between him I can't help but wonder "What if". Like maybe i could've helped him, like in school and his health. If he let me. I don't think of him that way, not anymore. But still, you can't stop your mind from wondering away. But his words are still with me. I wasn't the one he chose. And maybe it was for the best. But "What if".
I think i have the ability to change someone. But maybe, that isn't always a good thing.
Idk, maybe im feeling a little lonely. But i shouldn't regret what i've done right. I mean you grow from experiences. But maybe, my experiences have made me weaker. is that even possible.
I'm not looking for sympathy. Or even pity. Its healthy to get things off your chest. And even though, not alot of people will read this, it doesn't matter. Because its out of my head.
I am........change.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Impatient
Friday, May 21, 2010
L.O.V.E
Love has many definitions. And I'm surrounded by it. Whether its my sister and her new hubby, my parents, the love they have for me or the love i have for my pets/hobbies.
I feel privileged to see their loving moments....but i wonder...when will i have mine. Sometimes i feel like a third wheel. And its true, most of the time i am.
But sometimes i wonder, if someone feels love towards someone is it ok, to ......[get angry]....argue about the tiniest things. I know I'll do it...its normal, right...i think. But if it should be unconditional love, should those little things matter. I feel so confused.
I can i love someone....and not love myself. [maybe I'm weird one]
I sorry :(
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Random week: Wednesday
Wednesday:
So on Monday i realized that Glee (season 1: volume 1) has the same cover layout is vaguely similar to the movie cover of Hairspray.....Weird HUH!?!? that's what i thought....i put the two together and started cracking up. Yeah i know its not that funny....but i found it....
How come i find similarities between things??
Like Miley Cyrus's "See you again" sounds like "Sunglasses at night" by Corey Hart.
&!!! Miley Cyrus's "Party in the USA" (intro) sounds like "Heaven" by Los lonely boys
[is it me or does Miley Cyrus not have an original bone in her body???] I'm just saying...
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Random week: Tuesday
Monday, May 17, 2010
Random week: Monday
Friday, May 14, 2010
Trip to Austin, Texas
They are building an expressway!!! in Falfurrias!!! [you may ask why am i amazed] I am amazed because I've passed by Falfurrias a hundred times [during my life] and it was always just plain. But now!!! its growing, and no more going 30 or 35 mph anymore! [well at least til they are done].
We ended up arriving in Austin around 10:30. We made it to ....around the area where my cousin lives. . [turns out that she put a 26 instead of 23 on the street name...and that makes a difference] we finally found it!!! and a free parking spot....TIME FOR BED!!! :D
We woke up....semi-early...and headed to Kerby Lane.
It was then time to attend Danny's recital [fyi that's the name of my sister's BFF :D]
Watch it here:
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1335880592&v=app_2392950137&ref=profile#!/video/video.php?v=1453686785589
the rest of the day concluded with us going to HEB to get some beverages....and eating PLUCKERS!!! [Yum ...now I'm totally craving it] Overall i was a good mini-vacay. :D
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Ten on Tuesday
Its a tie between markers and - colored pencils. Im one of those people who trace a picture with a marker and color it in with a colored pencil :D.....but when im drawing i prefer............a regular pencil :D
2. As a child, how did your parents celebrate your birthday? (Parties, cake, you pick the dinner, etc.)
When i was little....it was parties w/ cake and lots of family!!! Good times Good times. "BEAST!"
3. How do you feel about leggings?
Have them. wore them once. Probably the first and last time i will wear .....those. Might end up buying new ones come fall.
4. How do you prefer to follow directions? With a map? Words?
A mapa! people tend to leave out words and use the wrong numbers and directions. So i trust a map. Especially on the iPhone
5. What do you eat for a snack?
hmmmm.....not really sure. im not consitent. but two weeks ago my dad bought some green apples. so for a while it was sliced green apples with chile. It was good!!!
6. Have you ever ordered anything from an infomercial or bought any As Seen on TV products?
NO!!! but there have been times where i was like "oh that looks cool...i want that". but the fear of getting yelled at stopped me. However the D&B they have on QVC looks tempting....
7. What’s your favorite thing about summer?
No school!!! no...... seriously! Although my family works....it is kind of a bummer. no time to head to the beach.
8. Do you have a tattoo? What and where is it?
HA are you kidding me!!!! (1) im too much of a whimp to get one (2) my dad would kill me (3) i don't want one :D
9. Are you good at journaling?
Journals??? Like accounting?? LOL!! like actually writing in a book, your thoughts and your inner secrets. Nah, not that good. I do like blogging even though i havent done some in a while. i sorry :(
10. What’s your favorite way to eat a hamburger?
the normal way. you know......grab with two hands and shove in mouth! unless its like our homeade burgers....its grab with two hands...take a bit of bottom part...then top...to make it equal :D
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Pot Roast....YUM!!!
All work and no play makes Audrey.....cry???
And ALAS i finished!!! with that project. It took a whole day but i finished. and it felt super good! Like i could do anything. Then....i started my Tax Return again. And that just killed my self esteem. Today i continued with it again. That's when i grew frustrated. and i guess i took it out on my sister. Who was going to help me but went to the mall. I started to cry. Because i just couldn't do it anymore. Then i realized its mine to do. I really hate my Professor. Unless i get a good grade...then maybe i will change my mind.
maybe.......
Friday, April 23, 2010
Smokey Dokie
Thursday, April 22, 2010
"Going to the Chapel and We're gonna get married..."
I think up til the ceremony, i was more excited than Jessica. It was probably all nerves for her. The day started with us waking up early [once again] heading to Wal-Mart to get extra things we needed that day. Then off to McAllen, to Jac-Lins Flowers, to pick up Jessica & Danny's center piece. And let me tell you, IT WAS BIG!!! Seriously, Look [ok ok i didn't get a whole picture of the thing....]
we then started making sure everything was in it's place. And i was there snapping photos as usual :DNext stop: AVALON!!! For hair and make-up time! My sister came out BEAUTIMOUS!!! Don't believe me, take a look!!! It was off to Joana's house to get ready, of course everyone had a hard time finding it. It is kinda out-there. But luckily, my dad, The photographer, and the limo driver were able to find it. And leave it to Cedillo Girls to get ready at the last minute. I hope the photo's come out good. Especially the ones where jessica is getting ready. My sister is/was really pretty!
We finally arrived to Trinity Worship Center, on time!! YAY!!! taking photos as usual. And being dumb, can't wait to see those photos as well!!! [especially the whipping one/ that one was fun]I ended up speeding [yes, i admit it] to the Villa de Cortez, because i had some stuff that had to get done. It was the bridal party in the car!! WHOOT WHOOT! [the MOH (myself), B1, B2 & B3 (Joana, Annie & Victoria)]
The beginning started off slow [of course since people were barley showing up] And Christina being well....Christina was taking pictures. Oh who!!! Non-other than JACK!!
Yes, i know i didn't take alot of photos. But after all i was the MOH, i needed to be in some. Don't cha think. At the end of the day....it was a good day. :D
And now i have a new brother!!! So Congrats to Mr. & Mrs. Danny [Cedillo].....i mean HILTON!!