Alternative?

Ok, maybe I've been going around this the wrong way. Thinking that my only way of having a summer was to get that internship. However, my sister, Jessica, stated an alternative that i never considered. I could be fine doing that. But i think i would have to find a way to find some cash.

Primary: Internship to....wherever

Alternative: Visit my Sister [the Royer Family]

I never really got to....know...my sister. we are 15 years apart [ i think]. Not like her and my sister know each other. We have things in common yeah, but still. That would be nice. To know more about the Royer family.

I'm still hoping that i get the internship. [sure if i don't get it i will cry for a bit but at least it won't be the end of the world.]

The possibilities are endless.......

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less
traveled by, And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost (1916)

Change

Is it possible to for one person to change other peoples lives? or their way of living?

I think i can. I think maybe i have. [maybe not for the better as i have heard]
I think I'm a good girl. I don't do wrong by people. I try to make the right choices. I avoid confrontation, so i hardly ever argue with people.

Sometimes i think about him. Although, nothing ever happened between him I can't help but wonder "What if". Like maybe i could've helped him, like in school and his health. If he let me. I don't think of him that way, not anymore. But still, you can't stop your mind from wondering away. But his words are still with me. I wasn't the one he chose. And maybe it was for the best. But "What if".

I think i have the ability to change someone. But maybe, that isn't always a good thing.

Idk, maybe im feeling a little lonely. But i shouldn't regret what i've done right. I mean you grow from experiences. But maybe, my experiences have made me weaker. is that even possible.

I'm not looking for sympathy. Or even pity. Its healthy to get things off your chest. And even though, not alot of people will read this, it doesn't matter. Because its out of my head.

I am........change.

Impatient

Why can't they put me out of my misery. I HATE waiting. I've had it up to here! [FYI I'm holding my hand above my head] I wish i knew. OH! by the way I'm talking about the final decision for the internship that i applied to [about 2-3 months ago]

I want to know already, so i can cry for a bit then get over it. This waiting is agonizing! I have a feeling that i didn't get it. [I'm being pessimistic right now] After all, nothing good ever comes my way. Seriously. I can't think of one good thing that has happened to me. For once i wanted something to happen. Maybe someone [God] would stop punishing me. [Heck maybe i am being dramatic, but that's how i feel (lately) 24/7]

Time............[Sucks]

L.O.V.E

Love(lŭv):(1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b : an assurance of love

Love has many definitions. And I'm surrounded by it. Whether its my sister and her new hubby, my parents, the love they have for me or the love i have for my pets/hobbies.

I feel privileged to see their loving moments....but i wonder...when will i have mine. Sometimes i feel like a third wheel. And its true, most of the time i am.

But sometimes i wonder, if someone feels love towards someone is it ok, to ......[get angry]....argue about the tiniest things. I know I'll do it...its normal, right...i think. But if it should be unconditional love, should those little things matter. I feel so confused.

I can i love someone....and not love myself. [maybe I'm weird one]

I sorry :(

Ok ok..."random week" didn't go as planned. turns out i was just writing [how do you say it] BLOGS!!! So this is my apology. :( I sorry my devoted followers [LOL]

Random week: Wednesday

Wednesday:

So on Monday i realized that Glee (season 1: volume 1) has the same cover layout is vaguely similar to the movie cover of Hairspray.....




Weird HUH!?!? that's what i thought....i put the two together and started cracking up. Yeah i know its not that funny....but i found it....

How come i find similarities between things??

Like Miley Cyrus's "See you again" sounds like "Sunglasses at night" by Corey Hart.
&!!! Miley Cyrus's "Party in the USA" (intro) sounds like "Heaven" by Los lonely boys

[is it me or does Miley Cyrus not have an original bone in her body???] I'm just saying...

Random week: Tuesday

Tuesday:

If i had a chance to go back and do everything all again...and pick a new career path....

I would be.......

A PILOT....[instead of an accountant...which to everyone seems like the most dull job ever]

I would fix my eyes so i could see clearly without glasses or contacts...

Maybe enroll in the air force..[be like my little Big sister]

But why Audrey, would you want to be a pilot?

One word: TRAVEL

To see city lights, to visit exotic places...and not just see places on TV where i would like to go..but actually go to them.

Maybe i would be happy.....but the key word would be "I"

Would i see my family? meet people and have long relationships? I think it would just me, myself, and I. and no one else.

Random week: Monday

ITS RANDOM WEEK!!! well at least in "Audrey World" it is......

Monday:

Has any phrase or lyric....ever made you finish the lyric or phrase..

for example:

The song "Ohh ahh...just a little bit" by Gina G...

When ever some one says (or we [Jessica and i]) "a little bit" or "just a little bit" we start busting out the chorus of Gina G's song.

Jeff Dunham's work.....

The Cedillo family is....like...not. obsessed......but we know his work well.....:D

If i said "HEY!!".......someone would probably finish it off "...he makin' fun of our car....he say our car is gay...it not gay...he gay.....Lets get Godzilla to KILL HIM..."[of course in a funny Asian accent]

Good times good times

Trip to Austin, Texas

I would like to, again, apologize for my absence. You see its finals week @ UTPA, luckily one of my finals was a week before my other finals. for i was only stuck with four exams instead of five. But still, it kept me busy.

Any who, during my dead days we (my sister, my brother-in-law, and myself) decided to visit Austin. Of course with a purpose, to see my sister's BFF bassoon recital. We decided to leave Wednesday afternoon. Along the way i was amazed....why?????

They are building an expressway!!! in Falfurrias!!! [you may ask why am i amazed] I am amazed because I've passed by Falfurrias a hundred times [during my life] and it was always just plain. But now!!! its growing, and no more going 30 or 35 mph anymore! [well at least til they are done].

We ended up arriving in Austin around 10:30. We made it to ....around the area where my cousin lives. . [turns out that she put a 26 instead of 23 on the street name...and that makes a difference] we finally found it!!! and a free parking spot....TIME FOR BED!!! :D

We woke up....semi-early...and headed to Kerby Lane.

The sign outside

Mi Sister & My brother-in-law

My omelet - The DENVER Omelet w/ fresh fruit and sourdough toast

I was fascinated with the jelly

Next stop: Mount Bonnell [which was hiking and looking at the lucky people who had a house by the lake]

Then it was time for dinero!!! so we were in search of a wells Fargo. ALAS we found one. that was by Congress [which we were gonna head to anyways] however, it turned out we were on the wrong side of congress...we were in north congress....we needed to go to south congress.. But we ended up walking around anyways. Ended up walking on 6th street. [which is nothing special ....during the day]. We found this music store, however, we were a little disappointed [well at least i was] that they didn't carry alot of Journey merchandise. But oh well...my sister did find a gift for her BFF, it was a little miniature bassoon that stood on its own. and a bumper sticker that says "Tune it or Die"

We finally made it to the Congress in which we meant to go. Visited to store "Monkey see monkey do" & "The candy shoppe" [where i finally got candy...last time i didn't...which is a BIG WOW for me] We ended up going to Magnolia's Cafe it was delicious BUT it was so much FOOD!!!

It was then time to attend Danny's recital [fyi that's the name of my sister's BFF :D]

Watch it here:
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1335880592&v=app_2392950137&ref=profile#!/video/video.php?v=1453686785589

the rest of the day concluded with us going to HEB to get some beverages....and eating PLUCKERS!!! [Yum ...now I'm totally craving it] Overall i was a good mini-vacay. :D

FYI - i don't like taking pictures [of myself]...i am the picture taker.

Ten on Tuesday

1. Do you prefer markers, crayons, or colored pencils?
Its a tie between markers and - colored pencils. Im one of those people who trace a picture with a marker and color it in with a colored pencil :D.....but when im drawing i prefer............a regular pencil :D

2. As a child, how did your parents celebrate your birthday? (Parties, cake, you pick the dinner, etc.)
When i was little....it was parties w/ cake and lots of family!!! Good times Good times. "BEAST!"


3. How do you feel about leggings?
Have them. wore them once. Probably the first and last time i will wear .....those. Might end up buying new ones come fall.

4. How do you prefer to follow directions? With a map? Words?
A mapa! people tend to leave out words and use the wrong numbers and directions. So i trust a map. Especially on the iPhone


5. What do you eat for a snack?
hmmmm.....not really sure. im not consitent. but two weeks ago my dad bought some green apples. so for a while it was sliced green apples with chile. It was good!!!


6. Have you ever ordered anything from an infomercial or bought any As Seen on TV products?
NO!!! but there have been times where i was like "oh that looks cool...i want that". but the fear of getting yelled at stopped me. However the D&B they have on QVC looks tempting....

7. What’s your favorite thing about summer?
No school!!! no...... seriously! Although my family works....it is kind of a bummer. no time to head to the beach.

8. Do you have a tattoo? What and where is it?
HA are you kidding me!!!! (1) im too much of a whimp to get one (2) my dad would kill me (3) i don't want one :D

9. Are you good at journaling?
Journals??? Like accounting?? LOL!! like actually writing in a book, your thoughts and your inner secrets. Nah, not that good. I do like blogging even though i havent done some in a while. i sorry :(

10. What’s your favorite way to eat a hamburger?
the normal way. you know......grab with two hands and shove in mouth! unless its like our homeade burgers....its grab with two hands...take a bit of bottom part...then top...to make it equal :D