A change of......mind

On Monday, i was dropped of at my Tio's (uncle's to all you non-hispanics) to hitch a ride to work. (because after all, i do work for him).....any-who......I got in his truck content with just getting my BA in Accounting. We got to talking about the CPA exam, and the CPA license vs. Masters in Accountancy. I got out of the truck, now wanting to further my career and get all three. My BA, my MAS & a CPA license. Yep im totally crazy. That means another year in college for me, which makes it a total of what.......4. thats normal for every other person. Im different, i knocked a year off during High School. So i was intended to graduate a year early. But i figured a Masters and a license will help me get out of here, and get me the life i always wanted.

I'm excited, really. Im ready to get my nerdiness back on. No wedding to plan, no boyfriend, no distractions. Im totally ready. Bring it on Fall 2010!!!

I'm a Working Girl :D

Alas! I have a job. I actually have something to call work. I'm getting real experience in the field I'm going into. My sister holds the record, 3 yrs. Hey that's BIG!! seeing as my uncle can never keep a secretary/staff accountant on hand. I know i won't break the record. because I'm graduating in a year. A YEAR!! I feel like a huge fear has been lifted off my shoulders. I enjoyed today, even if it was my first day. My sister was there to help me (not there physically). I'm a little worried on the car situation. Thanks to my mom, I'm able to get to work this week. but i know its not gonna be like that all the time. I'm getting paid $3.50/hr. Says my uncle. I'm not sure what I'm getting paid, all i know its more than what i got before. (zip.....nada.....$0) I want to get paid already. not because to buy things, but to help my dad with bills. I don't need money, yeah i like money, but hey i got priorities.

Tomorrow, i will be left unattended in the afternoon. I will admit I'm a little scared about that. But Tio said i get to use "I'm new" as an excuse.....for now. Friday i will also be by myself. Does that mean i get to show up late. (Just Kidding) I gotta get my little cousin to her work on time as well.

I discovered today that my soda is EXPIRED!! I didn't even know soda could expire....it tasted salty. But i didn't think anything before that because i was eating pasta (i had put salt in) but after lunch i drank water...then went back to my soda....and still the saltiness returned.

Oh well.

Tomorrow's lunch: Leftover Chicken Parmigiana.

Drinking, Scary, Funny

Ok, so we already know that i went to go see 'Twilight Saga: Eclipse" while i was here. but before that we went to go eat an early dinner at Olive Garden. And I'm 20, so no alcoholic drinks for Audrey. Me and Christina both ordered a "Peach Bellini"....except i meant the tea and Christina meant this alcoholic drink. Weird...i know. and She started freaking out, saying first that i shouldn't be drinking then saying that they better not bring her the tea. Well they did. I was totally cracking up at that point. :D

During my trip, Christina has developed a knack for....scaring me. I could be in my room...reading, texting, on my computer or just on my phone...and BANG! she's there. Freaky.

So since the car is out of my possession I've been at the house, cleaning (if i need to or was asked) I've done her & jacks laundry about twice already. And she informed me (one of the times she has scared me) that the number of years she's been married to Casey, he still hasn't figured out where everything goes. And it took me probably a matter of minutes to put things exactly where they go.

Ahhh....I love my sister. :D

Movie Reviews

So since I've been here, I've seen 3 movies.

(1) the Twilight Saga: Eclipse

I saw this one with Christina (of course), Dawn, and Dawn's neighbor. I liked it! But then again i love the books so I'm a little biased. They left some parts out, but like every book turned movie they kinda have to. But they added more lines for Jackson Rathbone (who plays Jasper) and we got his and Rosalie's (played by Nikki Reed) back story. but overall they were true to the store. The cinematography was different compared to the other two. Like in Twilight it looked like cloudy and not really focused. In New moon, they were bright lights and colors. This one was kinda dark, very dark colors. But it was just the director. Oh well, point is i liked this movie :D

(2) Despicable Me

In 3D with Casey, Jack, and Grandma Wendy. I laughed! it was cute and funny the minions were the funniest. A lot of famous people, I have no complaints against this movies. Good plot. In 3D it was awesome, as seen in the trailer there is a rollar coaster involved. And in 3d it feels like your actually on it, it was pretty cool. I'm not sure if i would buy it though.......idk maybe.

(3) The Last Airbender

This was a "Surprise" movie (for Jack) with Tina and Casey. I'm a fan of the cartoon. And i gotta say, the movie didn't do it justice. I for one I didn't like how they pronounce the names....it got on my nerves. And they made it seem that the "firebenders" couldn't do anything unless they were around fire (like it was impossible to make fire out of nothing) not like the cartoon at all. Ok the show is split up into three books (with various number of chapters).......i applaud them for making a movie out of the cartoon but couldn't they still stay a little close to the plot.

Point is Jack liked it, so did Tina (but Tina likes any movies, even if she denies it....she does)

My ranking of the three......

1st: Eclipse

2nd: Despicable me

3rd: The Last airbender

Why?

I was baptised Catholic...however, I'm not a practicing catholic (meaning i don't go to church other than the occasional family visit...or so my dad wont be alone). I do believe that there is a god. And lately I've been relying on him for everything. Like if its his plan than it shall be. I believe god wouldn't put someone on this planet to roam it alone. But his actions lately have been questionable....

This past Sunday, one of my sister's best friends lost his brother. I knew him. He was the funniest, nicest, honest guy on this planet. And yet he was taken away. It seems unfair. That people who do bad and cruel things are allowed to live...yet those who are the greatest are taken to be with God. I believe....no...i know he is with god.

Something i also think unfair...is how my sister's inability to have children anymore. I believe no one deserves a baby than she does. She has a son already (7 year old Jack...her miracle baby as she likes to call him) i see (and have friends my age) who have kids and don't have the ability to take car of them. I just doesn't seem fair. Christina doesn't really have a religion but she believes in God. Yesterday, she said that God would but obstacles in front of you if he didn't believe you could overcome it. Seriously, no one has made as much sense as she did yesterday.

I do believe in god...i guess this is a question if i believe in myself and the people i love. And i do.

Hello from Bolingbrook!

Yes, i am not longer in the valley. (Thanks to my mama) She paid for my trip to Chicago (more specifically Bolingbrook) to visit the Royer Family. So that's where i am now. I've been here for a little more over a week. And so its so calm here. There isn't much for me here to do. But the atmosphere itself is so different compared to the valley. I get my little taste of distance from the valley. and i like it. Although i wouldn't want to be this far away from my family. (that's why i tell myself San Antonio is the closet i will get to the valley).

This weekend (4th of July weekend)....I went to a birthday party with Jack. And to be truthful i thought i would be bored. But Jack kept me entertained...and i met some nice people. I ended up going back to Dawn's house (Casey's sister-in-law) and met some of her neighbors. Its kinda funny....it was like "Desperate Housewives". We then went to Olive Garden for dinner...it was a girls night out. It was Dawn, Dawn's friend, Christina, and me. It was meant to be a surprise..us going to go see Twilight Saga: Eclipse. However, i kind expected it. It is after all Christina we are talking about. It was a good movie.

During the movie however, there was an incident with this man. (out of 200 girls there were like 2-4 guys) were they had to stop the movie and get medical assistance. So we waited...and being girls we wanted to know what happened. Some women behind us even wanted to take pictures....now that's just crossing the line a bit. The movie continued.....and then it was time to go our separate ways.....Tina talked about the movie (compared it to the book) on the ride home.

The next day we traveled back to Dawn's house for dinner. ( I wore my Journey shirt...which Casey automatically started singing "Don't stop believing" and Keith & Terri (Casey's brother....Keith's neighbor) were kinda surprised that i knew about them... i did have to clarify that i liked them before Glee) I find it amazing that even though I'm no where related to Casey's family....they still treat me as family. Joking back and forth and getting my opinion on things. It was nice. Jack tried to learn how to ride a two-wheeler....he didn't get it...but I'm positive he will try again. We spend the night watching fireworks...i was a little surprised that its illegal for anyone to pop fireworks...Ha like that would stop anyone.

Forth of July. We went to Casey's step-sisters house......and its pretty far.....it was......ok....I got to meet Grandma Royer. she is the sweetest!! she told me to stay at home...to continue living with my dad. They were getting a little confused about the fact that me and Tina had different fathers. But we cleared it up.

Yesterday (Tuesday) i went for a jog and heard this alarm in town......i learned that the first Tuesday of every month they test the tornado alarm. Well I'm glad that was cleared up. I'm not sure what this trip will include...but i will definitely make the best of it.

Greatest fear

I know I've done a blog before about my biggest fear. [refer to my old blog] And it was non-other than birds. i would be lying if i said it was my greatest fear. I'm 20 years old [301 days til I'm 21] and my greatest fear.....is not living. [shall i explain] Not making a career for myself. Growing old alone. Not experiencing those things your suppose to experience when you grow up.......and last [but not least] not getting out of the Valley. I fear that I'm gonna be stuck here. And who knows maybe i will. But it won't be for the better. For...as long as i can remember, I've be infatuated with Paris & New York [yeah i know typical places] but not to me. The closest I've to those cities is photos and movies.

And about the other stuff. Not making a career for myself. Lets face it.....i didn't get the internship. [the departure date is in FOUR DAYS] kinda late notice if you ask me. And i can't get a job here, because [oh yeah that's right] you cant get a job without experience. And you can't get experience without a job. [so yeah I'm screwed] I have nothing going for me. I admit I'm not the prettiest out of the bunch. [being blunt I'm a freak, because of my height] [Its like I'm the Eiffel Tower and everyone else is the buildings around it](nothing compares)

Which leads me to....growing old alone. [Your probably saying "Your 20 you have plenty of time" and yes you would be right] I haven't had the best relationships. [an abusive relationship (which i still have nightmares about), a jealous one, and one where i realized we were just meant to be friends] I see these couples, and i just feel.....alone. I see my sister and her hubby & even my parents....and i cry [inside of course] [i try...not to let it bug me...but in reality it does]

Today [5-31-10] i broke the news to Kike that i knew i wasn't getting the internship. I couldn't even type it without crying. So [casually] i went to the bathroom [while Jessica was in the kitchen ...baking]. I locked the door, and sat down on the floor and began to cry. I guess when you have so much emotions in you.....it just comes out.

I know my sister [and maybe even my brother-in-law & parents] will probably read this. And they will try and give me their two cents. I'm not really sure i can take it. I'm not really sure they would understand.

Jessica - is gorgeous. Even if she doesn't know it. Married to her best friend. Smart. Lots of good friends. Probably never had a lonely day in her life. [though she may disagree.....she hasn't]

Danny - is talented [and that he probably knows] Level-headed. Generous & appreciated. Married to his best friend. Makes friends ....easily.

Mom & Dad - even though they are divorced. they seemed to have found each other again. And maybe they have had a lonely day. But......ever since us [Jess & I] they never had to endure a single lonely day again.




I......just want to .......LIVE.